If I told you that it took me 2 years to come to the decision to have weight loss surgery you probably wouldn't believe me but its true! it took me two whole years to decide that surgery was the way I wanted to go. I had tried dieting, working out, I even went to the local medical weight loss center, tried b-12 shots and the lipo shots spent hundreds on supplement but none of it seemed to be a permanent change. I would lose the weight and then gain it all back. It wasn't until my 21st birthday after having my yearly checkup, stepping on the scale weighing in at 286 and having my doctor tell me I had to lose weight did I even consider the surgery. I honesty had no idea when I gained the weight. I couldn't fit into any of my clothes, walking was uncomfortable. My feet were swelling from standing on my feet all day at work and it would take days for them to go back to normal. My clients would kindly ask if i had gained weight! Everything was just ugh!! I didn't feel like myself! Shopping wasn't as enjoyable because the plus size selection in most stores was scarce And not fashionable. I've been active most of my life (middle school-high school) from cheer-leading, volleyball,soccer,basketball, swim team, golf, I even tried track in high school and I've always been overweight but proportionate mostly muscle. But never this OBESE! so it never really bothered me. I was/am confident so I just did my own thing. marched to the beat of my own drum. Weight never stopped me from doing anything, or so i thought! Boy was I wrong! As I got older and started to get to know myself I realized I was not the best version of myself physically so I decided I needed a little help. I researched for months and months on YouTube and google, blogs, before and after photos. my biggest fear about losing weight in general and not just the surgery was having loose skin after the weight loss. I would say to myself, "i'd rather be fat than have loose skin". probably the worst mentality to have at the time but unfortunately we all can be a little vain at times. Once I got over that fear is when I decided to go ahead with the surgery. I felt it would give me the necessary motivation to go ahead and lose the extra weight!! I chose the weight loss surgery to become the best version of myself that i could become. I got tired of being just a pretty face or being described as pretty for a big girl or the fat friend. It gets annoying. I want to be described for my talent and intellect not just my physical appearance! physical appearance shouldn't be such a big deal but unfortunately in the society we live in, it is. Its the first thing people see, the first impression we have to give. Not that i'm trying to conform to society's standard of beauty because my goal is not to be super model skinny my goal is to be the best version of Harper. because the only persons opinion I value is my own. I did what made me happy and i'm so happy I did!!